Our Adoption Journey

Jamie @ See Jamie Blog has been high-lighting adoption stories and she ask if I would share our journey to adoption. I have shared our story many times but I have never written it down before. As I start to write it I wonder how can I really tell of our journey without it becoming a  book instead of just a single blog post? Those that know me will know why this will be difficult for me to do because they know I am a ‘talker’ and I can go on and on and on! Though I promise I will do my best!

“You know you will probably never have a baby” …………….those words can really get you to focus on desires that you never knew you had. I didn’t realize how much I wanted to be a mom until I was told I shouldn’t expect to be one. My husband and I talked about children, my medical condition and we prayed. We came to the conclusion that yes we did want children and now we began to pray about our options. I brought up adoption again, I say again because I had actually researched it and talked to my husband about it before but he wasn’t feeling it at that time. He wasn’t ready to jump right into adoption at this time either. Of course that didn’t stop me from  researching, looking at list of waiting children and trying to convince him we need to adopt right now. You see when I feel passionately about something I go all out and I felt passionately that this was the way God was going to bring us our child.

We spoke to the doctor about different options and I had a procedure done. During this time I tried to talk my husband into adopting a little boy I saw, then a baby from Russia, and then a sibling group. I am so thankful my husband is so level-headed and more cautious because I would have been out there ahead of God if my husband didn’t reign me in from time to time. I do not know how long it took but my husband came to feel the same way I did and he was ready to go forward with adopting a child. I can not pin point the exact moment but God brought Fostering to Adopt to our attention and we came to know that God was opening the door for us to adopt a child through that program.

We started the classes you had to take, we had a drug test, a physical, we filled out lots pf paperwork, wrote papers about ourselves, we were finger printed and had a back ground check completed. During this time we also prepared our spare room so it would be ready for when we received the call. We really thought there would be no way we could adopt a baby because everyone wants one so we felt right about telling them that we would foster to adopt a child age three to seven. We completed our last class and I do believe it was no more than a week when we received the first phone call about a child.  When I realized what this call was about I was nervous and excited but then when they told me that this child was a baby that had just born my heart beat so fast I thought I might pass out. I don’t think I could have been anymore excited than if I had just found out I was pregnant. My mind and my heart told me this was it, this was the child that God had picked out for us.

I got to hold this wee little baby for the first time when he was barely two days old, we brought him home at four days old and I spent almost every waking moment and a lot of sleeping moments with him. I was able to hold him, feed him, change him, bath him, play with him, sing to him, rock him, walk with him in my arms, take him to the doctor, give him medicine when he needed it, shop for him and do all those wonderful daily things moms do for their babies. We fell completely in love with him. We were devastated when at eight months he went home with his father. Each day hurt so much without this little one in my arms. We were ecstatic when a little less than a month later we received a call that he was back in the counties custody and they were bringing him back to us. Once again hope was restored and I felt this little one would be ours. After three more wonderful months with this precious baby we were told he was going with the father for good. Once again we were heart-broken, devastated and a little out of sorts spiritually. Of course now we know that this was God’s best for him and for us.

God had opened a door before baby #1 went home by placing another baby in our home. After much prayer and seeking God I thought this has to be the one that God meant for us. We loved on this baby and took care of him as if he were already ours. I do not know about you but for me babies are so easy to love. It was so easy to imagine this baby as ours, it was easy to imagine him staying forever. The door that God opened though was not for this baby to be ours but it was for Him to be able to love on this baby through us and to prepare us for the one he would be sending us. When baby #2 was about eleven months he was placed with some relatives and even though we know now it was God’s best, at the time I felt hopelessness,  emptiness, hurt and pain, I felt that it was unfair that we had to once again bring a baby into our home, fall in love and go through that kind of loss again.

My faith was a little shaken but it wasn’t broken!  Through this whole process I would testify to friends, family, my church that I want a baby but I want God’s best more than anything so even if that meant I would never have a child so be it. I would never turn away from my God.


Five days after baby #2 was no longer a part of our lives I received a phone call from a case worker and she said they had a baby boy who needed a home forever. I told her I would call her back, fear was the reason I did not immediately say yes. I was fearful of loving and losing again. I was fearful that it wouldn’t be God’s will for this baby to be ours. I spoke to my husband and ask what we should do? I told him my fears but the more we talked the more it came back around to God and His will. I said that we really felt like fostering to adopt was the way God was going to bring us our child. I said that if we say no to this baby, it will be the same as telling God we do not trust Him and I will NOT do that. So we agreed that we would say yes to this baby, we would say yes to God! Praise God we did say yes because this was the one, this was our baby, our child, our boy and our miracle. The adoption was final ten months after we were able to bring this precious boy into our home, our lives and our hearts. The ten months were not always easy, fear would at times peek over my shoulder but I continued to trust God and as always He was with us every moment of every day. The ten months of holding, loving and caring for our baby was absolutely beyond wonderful!! I had loved those other babies but with our baby everything felt, everything was so much more than words can express. There has never been a doubt that this was God’s very best for us and for our son. He knew from the very beginning of time that this little precious boy would need a mommy and daddy and at the same time God gave my husband and I the privilege of being what this little boy needed.

God had answered our prayers! He did not answer them as soon as we wanted Him to but He did what was best for us and what He thought  was best for our son. He had a plan and just as I have always told my beautiful precious boy, God’s plans are always BEST. During the waiting for our child God called us to foster many children that just needed a temporary home where they would be taken care of, loved and told about Him. We are not perfect people but by the grace of God we did the best we could to be what these children needed while in our care. On our journey there were many tears shed, pain, doubts, fears, hard work, frustration, hello’s and good bye’s but Praise God there were also lots and lots of joy, laughs, growing, learning, trusting, strengthening, good surprises, hugs by little arms, hello’s and good bye’s and so much more. We gained far more than we could have ever dreamed possible while on this journey. That was not the end of our journey though. God wasn’t finished with us (actually He still isn’t), to top it all off He allowed us to adopt another beautiful precious baby boy!! We are a family of four now and I will be forever grateful to my Lord for being so good to us by allowing the four of us to be a family. God is so good………All the time!!


** I do not have a scanner so I couldn’t share any of their baby pics but oh well at every age your kids are beautiful so I enjoyed sharing the pics I did =) **

Advertisements

21 Comments Add yours

  1. Patricia says:

    What a beautiful and amazing story of God’s best in your life, thanks so much for sharing, I always wondering and wanted to hear about your precious boys,thank you Angie!

  2. apryl tipton says:

    Angie,
    That story was so touching,I am so glad that it all worked out for you. Being a mother is the best thing, I would not change a thing,God gave me two wonderful little boys also,I love them dearly. Thanks so much for sharing that story it really touched my heart.CHILDREN ARE BLESSING FROM HEAVEN.GOD IS SO GOOD!!!!!!
    PRAYING FOR MANY YEARS OF HAPPINESS IN YOUR FAMILY……….. Apryl

  3. Angie, I love to hear stories like yours, because through families who have gone through adoption I can see clearly an image of my own relationship with God. He,God himself adopting me into His family! And now I can call Him Abba Father.

    What a privilege for you to have two sons. May His grace be over your family, again and again, every day. May His favour be over the generations to come so they will also join you in praises to our God.

    Have a blessed Lord’s Day!

  4. Cynthia Pegram says:

    Thank you for writing your amazing story!! I know we talked about it, but reading it was so encouraging and inspiring!!

  5. Lora Hardin says:

    Love it…Love you…Love your precious boys :D) Thanks for sharing.

  6. Kim Ashbaugh says:

    Wow, Angie, I didn’t know you’d lost some along the way. My sister went through the same thing…after being told she’d never get pregnant, they fostered an “adoptable” baby boy from birth. At 7 mos., he was given to relatives. My sister and her husband were devastated. It was the same feeling they would have had if he’d died. Like you, my sister refused to give up on her faith that God was in control. The same week the baby was taken from her, she found out she was (miraculously) pregnant! Soon, she was asked to foster another baby boy, who came for a few months, went back to his parents, and came back into the system again when my sister’s “miracle” baby was 6 mos old. He’s been back with my sister and her family for over a year now. Adoption seems likely, but there is always that fear that it won’t work out. We know that God loves our little nephew even more than we do, and will work things out for his glory. Thanks for sharing; I’m going to send my sister over to your blog!
    =)

  7. Erin Vigeant says:

    What a beautiful and inspiring story. Thank you so much for sharing it. I pray that God will continue to bless you and your beautiful family.

  8. Julie says:

    What a precious story! God is good!

  9. Trish C says:

    Thanks for sharing your story, Angie!! I feel so uplifted after reading it.

  10. Ginger says:

    Angie, thank you for sharing your adoption story with us, it is beautiful. I’m so glad that you and Carey chose to trust God, and that he choose to bless you with two precious boys! You and your family are such blessings in my life. We love ya’ll!

  11. Robin says:

    Our family has also been blessed with adoption. It’s a beautiful thing and all part of God’s plan. Blessings to you & your family!

  12. Felina says:

    Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us Angie. You are such a blessing and inspiration to many; it was wonderful how you just kept knowing that God had and still has the perfect plan for you and your family. I have learned so much about our Father because we are His children through adoption by which Jesus did for us! I love how the Amplified Bible puts it in Ephesians 1:4-6

    4Even as [in His love] He chose us [actually picked us out for Himself as His own] in Christ before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy (consecrated and set apart for Him) and blameless in His sight, even above reproach, before Him in love. 5For He foreordained us (destined us, planned in love for us) to be adopted (revealed) as His own children through Jesus Christ, in accordance with the purpose of His will [[a]because it pleased Him and was His kind intent]– 6[So that we might be] to the praise and the commendation of His glorious grace (favor and mercy), which He so freely bestowed on us in the Beloved.

  13. Robin says:

    Oh Angie, what a testimony of faith and the Lord’s goodness and grace. Thank you SO much for sharing your family’s journey. Amazing.
    Love in Him,
    ~Robin

  14. Angie says:

    Thank you all you sweet, sweet ladies that left wonderful encouraging words!!! It is all about God and His good plans for us!!!!

  15. There are a couple more sweet comments on my blog on your guest post, too, so be sure to come read those as well!

  16. April Baldwin says:

    Angie, thank you so much for sharing your story…isn’t God awesome!! He always knows what is best for us and opens doors at just the right time!! You have 2 handsome young men, who my children just love! Thank you for allowing God to work through you in their lives. You are such a blessing and inspiration to me!!

  17. Donna Bannister says:

    Angie, as the aunt of these two precious boys and having walked through the roller coaster experience of adoption with you and Carey as your sister-in-law, it was TERRIFIC hearing the story again and seeing the great things God has done written on paper! Many prayers were lifted up by the entire extended family during those days of waiting and watching to see what God would do. He has truly given us “a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair.” (Is. 61:3) THANK YOU, Angie, for sharing. Your are right sweet Sister, God is so good…..all the time!!

  18. Brandy says:

    Thanks for sharing this Angie! What a wonderful story!!

  19. Sharla says:

    Thank you for sharing your story. Five of our kids are adopted (three through the foster-to-adopt program). Reading your story, I relived some of our experience. We lost our first little foster-to-adopt girl when after nineteen months, she was sent to live with her birth parents. I still miss her all these years later, but trust that God has a plan and I know that the kids we have are the kids he meant for us to have.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s